I can't believe how much my ego gets in the way. Sadly my ego cannot be quelled, and as such I shall never be as good as I want to be.

Don't know where this is coming from? Check out this thread. I asked for critiques and I got them, but I keep resisting. I keep, basically saying, "F U UR WRONG" when my brain knows that they're right. I just cannot seem to take what they're saying and seriously consider it. I want to, I really do, but the more I fight the worse it gets.

As my philosophy teacher once said, "If you go into a field where you want to be the best, then that field isn't for you. Go into a field that you are always willing to learn and know that you'll never be the best, nor will you want to be." I guess this is showing just how bad it'd be for me if I took art as anything more serious than a hobby.

/sigh Not that I'd get that far anyways. I don't have a degree in art nor the time to train extensively like many others have. I just want stuff that'll look good. Sure I can draw for myself all I want, but I get irritated when things don't look right. Then I ask for advice and I end up fighting the very people that are trying to help me. Go me.

Sorry for the special snowflake, woe is me, ego filled rant here. I'm just wishing right now that my ego wasn't in the way of this.